insist or not?
這一年來，由激動、到執著、到堅持、到失落、到失望、到頹喪、到麻木......
近幾個月，開始意識到自己越來越沒感覺，
一直都叫自己看開一點、麻木一點；
要求低一點、期望少一點。
即使很多不如意的事迎著我而來，我已練成「無苦」的境界。
可是，同時我也失去了享受開心的感覺。
你可能會說，你很幸福的了，你有A、B、C、D、E、F、G......W啊!
但其實我只想要X、Y、Z，
即使沒有A至W也沒相干......
常言道，知足常樂；慾望少一點，人會開心點。
但當那所謂「足夠」的界線去到那麼低時，我還要堅持下去嗎？
posted by Hoiman @ 2:15 AM
4 Comments:
"但其實我只想要X、Y、Z，
即使沒有A至W也沒相干......"
我十分明白這種感覺,擁有的明明已經是很多很多,但所缺的是心中想要的X,即使擁有X1、甚至X2也不甘,沒有X就是缺了,原因簡單不過: Those A to W can only fill the volume, but not the substance, of my heart.
知足...不過是把自己的要求不斷降低,用催眠的方式麻醉自己的心,直至它不懂反抗吧?可是,麻醉只不過是暫時的停頓,總有清醒過來的一刻。
但,人總要學會知足,否則不會活得快樂。共勉之。
i just realized the same thing recently too. You remember long time ago when you were still my group leader, we used to do a psy test. And you and me happened to fall into the group that has high empathy score? I guess we are just the kind of people who are more sensitive to emotional change than many others. And I'm pretty sure that we know what we want and how we could be fulfilled.
but then we are not the people who are easily satisfied. Because we want the exact thing to attain fulfilment!
From other's POV, we definitely are the DEMANDING people, because we have high expectation on things and even higher exp on people.
I guess numbing yourself is very pessimistic tho~
the only way to get over the disappointment and upsetting feeling is to step back and relax.
now i'm more like "OK, whatever, don't let it matter me. And sure enough I am not spending my energy to worry about such stupid thing" rahter than forcing myself to accept the matter.
the only we have to accept tho, is that we are different from the others. We are sensitive to things that a lot of people are not. So expecting them to understand us is very difficult.
and why bother to get mad on ppl who doesnt even care right?
Maybe I'm still too naive to understand as much as you do, but still, we are more or less on the same path(i think).
Remember, no one in this world is unimportant.
點呀， 讀書d野已經無晒行啦??
Thanks guys...
Don't know what and how to say...
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