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諷刺的驚喜

那不想收到的 終於由郵差叔叔送回給我。

數天前特地親身送出的東西, 現在別人無意地由第三者送回我手上......

感覺很差。
好像被人拒絶了的感覺。

亦好像反映出我一直以來的角色......我一心一意的付出, 可是對方卻有意無意間不停否定或拒絶我的心意。

簡直就是天時地利人和......時間的脗合、遙遠的距離, 現在還殺出一個「人為疏忽」......真的無話可說, 「奇妙萬分」!......就讓事情自然地順著這樣發展吧...

很辛苦, 睡前不停流淚, 醒來又要受眼淚折磨, 近來感到視力越來越模糊......

還好早有心理準備, 否則我會一手親自把自己的心血催毁。

既然別人不珍惜, 我只有自己珍惜自己。

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posted by Hoiman @ 12:26 PM 6 comments

Hiking - Tai Long Wan

Thank Ray for inviting me to go hiking today and I met 8 new faces. We had a good time, with moderate weather, walking from Pak Tam Au to Sai Wan. To me, it was also an outdoor worship in which I could immerse myself totally in the amazing world created by God. Various kinds of plants were surrounding me, over my head was the boundless blue sky filling with cotton-like clouds...sunlight shined on me and gave me warmth...gentle breeze blew my hair to make me awake and helped me finish the journey comfortably.

We had a rich lunch in the middle of journey in a certain store. We ordered 山水荳腐花, 鹵水雞全翼, 炒粉麵飯, 牛丸魚旦......etc. Most were food that I seldom eat usually, but they tasted good when I had a bite of them...Yes...sometimes I have to stop having any unilateral willingness and be brave to strive for a breakthrough. Those things that I think are not suitable for me may suit me well. On the contrary, those my favourites may harm me enormously. Maybe it's time for me to release someone from my heart...

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I have wasted much tears days and nights...
Come on Hoiman, you have to focus on your future instead! Cheer up!

posted by Hoiman @ 12:45 AM 0 comments

2 days were ruined

Cause:
Shocked by a sms on 24 Feb (18:22)

Result:
Night swimming was cancelled.
Swallowed everything that is edible at kitchen till 3a.m.
Lied on the sofa like getting 5 months pregnant till 5a.m.
Absent from the mural painting at 9a.m.
Couldn't eat anything after getting up
Had my 1st and only meal at 6p.m.
Exhausted and feeling dizzy now...

Goal:
Sleep at 12a.m. and have a happy sunday tomorrow

posted by Hoiman @ 11:10 PM 7 comments

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I was shocked...

Anyway, I had calmed down after 3 hours...Anger had been taken over by disappointment...as I have swallowed the anger crazily...

Just feel that I am too light in other's heart.
Let it be. I am not qualified to ask for anything.

I thought I was tough enough as I didn't cry in this week. But then, I collapsed by a glimsp on a face yesterday and 2 sms today...so weak I am.

I have to protect myself...

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Simply Diary

My aunt
On wednesday, I had Dinner with my aunt and her family whom I haven't met for 2 years. Mother's face emerged in my mind when I met my aunt......as she is the only one who supported me when mother was tortured by cancer. She said," 8.5 years already, Time fries" ...yes...time can heal wounds. Let me share more later.

Tips for sleeping
Anyone could give me some tips of how to fall asleep at bedtime? For this week, I spent 1.5 hours in average lying on the bed before falling asleep even I am physically exhausted. And I woke up at 0630 and couldn't sleep anymore yesterday...... just slept for 3 hours...

Warmth from friends

I really feel care and warmth from my friends. Ginny gave me a recipe calendar and we had a good local Shanghai lunch yesterday. Thanks dear! I love it~! Hope you like the cookies I specially baked for you! ( could you feel the power of photography? Photos could really cheat! hehe)

Thank Kosby for inviting me to go to Shirley Kwan's concert tonight (even you just wanted a companion :P ) But I wanted to take a rest at home...hope you didn't go alone! I don't know why there were many chance of seeing a free concerts for me......Hacken Lee (2 days), Eason Chan and Shirley Kwan...... but I just attended one of the Hacken Lee's concerts. Actually I am interested in David Tao's coming concert in April...thank Ray for inviting me too...but I don't wanna spend on tickets, sorry, haha...

Thank Fish for recommending me to work as a part-time web designer. He knows I am so poor but I dare not find a full-time job before April. Wairing for good news now; Otherwise, see if I will be still alive by spending savings, haha.

Stranger
Someone from "Live Magazine" asked me to help being a model in a street of Wan Chai after meeting Ginny yesterday. I met countless so-called talent agencies in Central before but it's my first time in Wan Chai. However, since he couldn't tell clearly what "Live Magazine" is (just said it's available in newsstand), who he is (just said from "Live Magazine"), what I have to do (just said "to help" photo-taking)...etc, so i just left, otherwise I would try. In fact I trust him, as those who cheat are mostly with a silver tongue, haha.

TIT*F
Then I walked from Wan Chai to Causeway Bay. I couldn't help visiting TIT*F! Remember this bakery I mentioned long time ago? Click here to recall. After moving, I usually visit it everytime when I go to Causeway Bay...this time i had spanish muffin and green tea bread...they cured my "homesickness" (Tai Hang)...haha


Pumpkin and Red Bean Paste
I feel uneasy if I don't cook something everyday recently...is it an illness? I made this chinese dessert today. It's brown in color, not quite attractive...but it tastes good and is nutritious.

Stress
Feeling stressful. A phone interview and a face-to-face interview will be held in March...x_x Both will alter my future...

posted by Hoiman @ 1:17 AM 6 comments

Reunion Dinner

(From top to bottom, left to right)

1. Had my Titus changed its batteries at Tsuen Wan. It is about 3-4 years old.
2. Rich dinner prepared by my ex-bf's parents. My taste buds' memories were recalled. Large plate of Tofu and vegetable salad were especially cooked for me. I had been full up by 1/2 of the tofu dish and 3/4 of the salad!
3. Warm hug with Pooh Pooh, whom I haven't met for 2 years. Thanks Fai for being our photographer.
4. Freshly-baked cookies as a visiting gift.

Feeling of kindness hasn't changed much. Time has been kind to my memory.

posted by Hoiman @ 1:04 AM 4 comments

Make myself busy 2

Feeling down and lonely...

Alone at home again...I am like living alone as before.
I forget when have all my weekends and sundays turned out to be the same as weekdays.
Anyway, I forced myself to do something I like.

I love the pumpkin muffin of Casa Patisserie in Central. Its texture is dense bread-like, with just little sweetness, let you teste the original whole wheat flavour. You have it as if having a bowl of rice...since it appeases your hunger satisfactorily. It sold at $10 each but I think it's worth it... As it uses large amount of Japanese cake flour and whole wheat flour, as well as relatively expensive sugar substitute. You also have to boil the pumpkin before and the dough is very sticky to handle...finally the kitchen turns into a mess but just 4 muffins are yielded...so, $10, go for it!

Bad mood's come back after baking. What am I doing?
I am writing here to pretend chatting with someone who doesn't visit here...what a stupid girl.

posted by Hoiman @ 7:07 PM 13 comments

Make myself busy

Today I decided to take an outdoor day off, for a fresh breath and made myself being occupied.

In spite of low-quality sleep due to insomnia, I got up early and travelled to a far place, Tsz Wan Shan, to redeem a heavy "Fuk Bag" from Parknshop (What a si lai's act!). After lunch I stayed in PageOne at Kowloon Tong for 2 hours, then bought 2 box of blueberries at TASTE (Yippee! Just $13.8 a box!). Holding the super-heavy "fuk bag" made me no longer hang around on the street...so I decided to go back home.

It was surprising to find that my brother was at home tonight (later I knew that it was because his girlfriend has went to mainland China) and so it was our 2nd time to have dinner together at Park Island. Luckily there were lots of food in the refrigerator and the dinner was quite satisfying for me......see what I have cooked in the photo!

Cooking, cleaning up the kitchen, washing clothes and hanging on the line...occupied my whole night...very tired now...but no mood to get on the bed...

Today seems so looooooooong.......time runs so slowly.......

posted by Hoiman @ 1:54 AM 2 comments

Nowhere Man

7:09p.m.

Don't wanna be light bulb at home, but I have nowhere to go.

Care for a drink, but no one shares.
Wanna cry or smile, but no tears or joy.
Wanna be cared, but...

Got the freelance money back. Got all red pockets unwrapped.
Pocket fills with money, but my heart is empty.

I wonder, is that the end?

Too simple...

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2:10a.m.

Finally, I left at half past 8 and, with my red-pocket money, tested the effectiveness of "Retail Therapy" at Tsing Yi. Unlike most girls, I just love to shop in groceries / supermarkets rather than boutiques. Am I strange?

Finally I have spent $168.5 (What a lucky number! 0.5 is a bonus?) after hanging around in the supermarket for an hour. Undoubtedly the amount of food is enough for a whole week. Haven't forgotten to choose some snacks in Aji Ichiban too...and a magazine...altogether $200.5 is gone! (Already a crazy shopping for me...) It seems that it works, at least I wouldn't stay at home and stuff my stomach with snacks... on the contrary, I didn't have dinner tonight... so hungry now!

I love to see what people shop at the cashier. You could guess how their lives are and what kind of people they are by glancing what they buy in the baskets. So let me share my harvest with you so that you could know me more.


List of food

tomatoes, cabbage, pumpkin, celery, onion, banana, pomegranate, lemon, grapefruit, chicken breast, a box of cereal, dried beans for Jia Jia, peanuts, dried lily, wholemeal flour, cream cheese, candy

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2:33a.m.

Tears rolled down by a simple sms...

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posted by Hoiman @ 7:09 PM 3 comments

杏仁拖肥曲奇

這是今天返完崇拜後下午焗的東西, 帶回火炭的老家給他們品嚐。有蛋撻和新試驗品 ──「杏仁拖肥曲奇」--> 名字漂亮, 但其實只是把剩餘的撻皮包著某某新年糖果罷了! 樣子醜醜的, 但阿姨居然說好味, 問我在哪裏買......下次再試過整靚D先得!

今日阿妹生日, 吃了「哈近帶」雪糕蛋糕......只是一舊雪糕了, 沒啥特別啊! 個人還是喜歡真蛋糕呢......

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近況
過去的星期三、四、五, 感覺很孤單又緊張, 3天也是以零食當三餐, 沒有運動, 全身立即又多了些肉肉!

星期四晚收到電話, UAL要我翌日3pm前交study proposal, 於是星期五用了3個小時, 胡亂地定了個沒有新意的topic, 寫了個很不滿意的study proposal, 3pm前便交了。隨後又立即預備第二間學校的申請, 十多小時沒停過, 直到零晨2時多才完成, 第二天特地過海到會展當面交予該學校......幸好那位黑人型仔哥哥一句:"Excellent! You've got everything prepared!" 幸好沒漏野! 唉, 真的神經緊張!

還有一間學校要申請, 又要寫study plan + 千字proposal.....xox 想嘔喇~~不過收到British Council的信, short-listed了, 沒有特別的興奮, 只有緊張......

不知是否近來太緊張, 生活又不太規律, 「親友」兩個星期還未到訪! 心情怪怪的......很怕一來是世紀大災難!:(


其他
- 為阿公精神不錯而感到安慰, 希望他早日出院, 可以返屋企陪阿婆!
- 謝謝吱喳妹的貼身禮物, 希望如承你貴言, 9月用得著吧,嘻嘻:)
- 下星期一至三「有工返」! 好開心! What's that? 義工是也! 將會去醫院幫手畫壁畫, 朝九晚五的呢! 不過只有3-5人畫, 不知會否很辛苦呢 (上次站著畫兩小時已感四肢乏力)?

posted by Hoiman @ 1:50 AM 8 comments

I am still alive!

---好番---
蒙各位的祝福, 終於好番了! 醫生說我什麼「病毒感染」, 不知是什麼, 總之好番便算了! 前天胃還很痛, 吃藥也沒用, 以為平時咀咒得自己太多而得了不治之症.......這兩天一沒胃痛便吃了很多花生糖和新買的雀粟, 哈哈!

---閉關---
很要命! 上星期六和日簡直是地獄天, 因為UAL突然說deadline為星期一(6/2), 所以我便要抱病閉關兩天, 但連續兩天阿哥也有兩大班friends前來打麻雀, 故此閉關也進行得甚艱難, 星期日還做通頂, 做到星期一朝早7時半才睡, 睡了兩小時又起身追船過海交application......累得發慌! 不過難得過海, 便回xm拜年, 和他們去吃粥~~

---收數---
到銅鑼灣另一任務是去收數。話說那份令我激氣了很多次、追了數個月的freelance數, 說早已寄了支票給我, 哪有啊? 叫她寫多次......等了一個月, 決定要親自上門收票......怎知那支票多了"TIFFANY"一個字......去銀行問, 等了40分鐘, 不能兌現!!! 開票者又不在香港.....只是千二元, 花了我很多精神時間如今也未能拿到, 究竟那千二元可以何時真正入我袋? 到現在, 做了那4份freelances, 我依然拿到$0......真的有點怕做freelance了 -_-

難得「出城」, 很想四處逛逛, 最後體力透支, 便回家了。回到家又捨不得睡, 吃吃雀粟, 看看電視, 翻翻LISA......

---收禮物---
阿哥零晨回家, 捧著從美國寄來給我的大包裹, 嘩......一對刻有我名字的生日禮物, 很感動! 宗山, 謝謝你! 結果感到到半夜兩時才睡......哈哈:p

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---吱喳聚---
昨天與吱喳妹到旺角一聚, 在pokka一邊吃著沙律和菜卷, 一邊談天說地, 輕輕鬆鬆的渡過了兩小時。老友, 算一算原來也已幾個月沒見, 但感覺一點都不像呢! 去與留, 我都會支持你的, 不過我同朋友仔都一樣咁掛住你ga! (可能他掛多一點, hahaha)

---怪遇---
飯後便四處逛。之後在潮流特區門口, 吱喳妹一枝箭進了商舖, 而我卻在門口被人「督背」,心想又是那些「嗨小姐, 阻你一會, 你件衫好靚...」的來歷不明的女人, 但回頭一看, 是一個高高瘦瘦、五官端正的男仔, 帶點害臊地給我遞上一張紙仔, 我差點本能地接了過來, 但疑惑地看看他手中的紙仔, 隱約看到他歪歪的字寫著:「想和你做個朋友....9xxxxxxx」。我驚慌地轉身追回吱喳妹 (吱喳妹只顧看東西已不知我被截停了 -_-, 朋友仔你話下佢啦! :p)

驚的原因, 是因為事情很不合邏輯: 一個真的害臊到要遞紙仔交朋友的人, 怎可能不顧顏面的當面在街上遞紙仔交朋友? 很矛盾嘛! 除非......這個人是傻的! 又可能那張紙有炭疽菌......反而遇到那些擺明車馬搭訕的臭男人, 我倒覺得很正常呢! 大家說, 他是什麼心理?

---會友---
晚上在朗豪坊會lin & win, 謝謝大家為我補祝生日 :) 聽聽友人的感情事, 很無奈, 希望妳快點解決吧! 不過很羨慕你可以寓娛樂於工作呢! 另希望阿win去東京唔會大出血, 小心d呀!

posted by Hoiman @ 5:49 PM 5 comments

病了

年初五, 阿cat來馬灣探望我, 大家一起吃吃飯、喝喝咖啡、吹吹海風, 談談近況、說說心事。朋友, 不要急, 就讓雞年把傷痕都帶走吧, 希望狗年可讓你有個新開始!

不知是否那件雞扒太肥膩, 抑或海風太猛, 昨天下午便感到肚子不適及手腳冰冷......還以為是親友M到訪, 但越來越不對勁......開始手軟腳軟 x_x

謝謝阿俊送上兩張免費票, 晚上有幸零付出的到紅磡看李克勤演唱會。 3個多小時在死撐, 其間肚瀉了兩次, 企圖手搖捧捧叫自己分心......幸好歌好聽, show好看! (黃蒙拉的live violin很正!!!)

回到家發燒了, 差點連床也上不了, 睡到早上吃藥。 頭暈暈地躺在沙發上不醒人事, 其間被陣陣的胃痛吵醒......到下午5時起床吃麥皮 (雀粟真的要家家必備! 不過吃完有點反胃......), 才有點力量, 清醒一點......所以現在有精神上網呢! 不停睡真的會神志不清啊。

喇叭丸、胃仙U、樂信也吃過了, 止瀉了, 但胃痛依然糾纏著我, 看來明天要看醫生了。


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很喜歡這歌詞, 簡單, sweet.


阿旺新傳主題曲

作曲：鄭智偉 填詞：鄭櫻綸 主唱：郭晉安 宣萱

十萬夢兒裡有你 一起闖入穿梭機 與你挽手星海中探險遠飛
若問爲何愛上你 推開關著的心扉 你以愛將千顆傷透心救起
怎麼天天見太陽 東方升接著夕陽
夜與白天分開去細賞
怎麼一天再漫長 心中總有你在場
念掛（女）就似是唯一的傾向
（男）著你如在美夢 我想

Sunshine and love be with you
In rainy days, I shall be with you
Love is no fool Dreams come true
問問愛會有多闊 原來像那片天高海闊
Love is no fool Dreams come true
I'd always be with you

posted by Hoiman @ 12:25 AM 5 comments

忙於初狗

各位新年快樂!!

希望大家在狗年開開心心, 身體健康!

這幾天很忙! 忙於拜年同款客!

趁我還記得就要記下...

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今年生日「平平穩穩」的渡過~~

特別的是:
- 和莫扎特同月同日生, 今年還是他250歲生日, 差不多是我的10倍, 哈哈
- 今年生日和阿嬤的舊曆生日是同一天, 故生日要和親友渡過 +_-"(但大部份人也不知我生日)
- 收到大家各式各樣的禮物:
中式餅模、小電筒、生日咭、organizer、散紙包、香水、杯、酒心朱古力、雜誌架......(還有未出現的...hehe)

要謝謝......
- 阿旗在特別時段帶我去看戲(午夜)和唱K(下午)
- 朋友P和我去spagetti house食tea (= my dinner)
- 宗山從遠方來的郵件
- 輝媽的來電祝福
- kiki的生日ecard
- Wang的email祝賀
- 吱喳妹落機後的來電祝福及朋友仔的留言
- 大家的sms祝福 (烈士、宗山、輝、Kosby、小駿、小茵、Pan...)
- 大家的msn/icq祝福 (百佳、win、Marco...)
- 回家時, 樓下看更伯伯在電梯門關上前的一句「你係全楝樓至省鏡一個!」
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今日年初四, 阿嬤阿叔姑姐表弟表妹們舉家到我家拜年, 共十多人, 真的神經緊張!

不但怕他們沒位坐、沒杯飲水, 更整天忙於招呼他們: 由早上預備茶點, 下午招呼他們, 到晚上收拾清洗, 累得我雙手也發軟。

晚餐雖叫外賣, 但單是預備點心、斟茶遞水、refill全盒、安排娛樂、清理垃圾、收拾碗碟、搬桌動椅....已叫我忙得不可開交, 沒時間吃lunch和聽電話! 他們離開後, 更要收拾殘局, 11時多才停下來! 要招呼一大班人真的不容易呢!

很可惜爸爸沒有來, 我還等地弄了蛋撻和紅豆沙給他呢!
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不知是否大家看得太多電視劇集的關係, 有不同的人說我似郭羨妮~~ 不要啦, 我不要做醜版/肥版/大口版郭羨妮!
一年前李心潔頻頻上報, 就有很多人說我似她......
um, 原來我可以反映上這期誰人hit呢 -_-"

posted by Hoiman @ 1:34 AM 8 comments